okay this is not a fun post...i'm just so mad...my mom texted me telling me that a certain someone (person A, whom i'm pretty sure by the end of this post, those who know me well will know who this person is) asked me why i haven't congratulate a certain someone who is close to this person (person B)...person A and B are closely related...ah i supposed u can say that i'm closely related to them, sadly...i thought being in auckland distances me from person A (i have nothing against person B)...person A is a menace in my family (family of mama, baba, jaja, gegel, alin, aboy and nenek maridah, my maternal granny)...secretly (an open secret in my family) we all have personal grudge against person A...realistically, i HATE PERSON A!i know this is immature but frankly, i don't care much anymore...
the fact is, i am straightening up my life right now...it's messy...to minimize the messiness, i push person A and all of person A's associations out of my mind...i am on counselling for god's sake!i don't need more complications...out of sight, out of mind...i even stop calling person A or ask about person A (just out of courtesy, mind u) to my family...i just want to not think about person A...but receiving that text from my mom is like a straw breaking the camel's back...person A is just testing my patience and now i feel like i want to burst...i wish person A can keep to her/his own grave...take care of ur own grave and don't go knocking on someone else's door....it's a metaphor...i wish she/he keeps to her/himself....i don't want to know about her/him anymore...i can be polite but i frankly, i don't respect person A...she/he is vicious and thoughtless...about the congratulating thing, i really forgot...i have things to think about which is more important than that...for god's sake, i talk to person B like once in a year!and not for even more than an hour!we barely know each other other than common ties...
i know i sound like a bitch, but hey what goes around, comes around...u used to treat us like dirt (still doing it in fact)....do u expect i have no feelings what-so-ever?i remember...i have a long memory...it will not fade...i just push the memories back in my mind...but please, all the pathetic attempts for sympathy doesn't get u anywhere with me...i act as if i care but i don't...u can be as sick as u claimed (or sick, in reality) but well, u have ur 'dear family' that u keep on claiming about...let them take care of u...i frankly (truly, sincerely) DON'T GIVE A DAMN...get off my back...just shut up and don't even think of calling my name...i don't want to know u...it's no special treat to know u...u hurt a lot of my loved ones...u deserve what u get...seriously, i can even cry crocodile tears on ur grave but please, in between then and now, keep ur distance, preferably 10000 km away...
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the fact is, i am straightening up my life right now...it's messy...to minimize the messiness, i push person A and all of person A's associations out of my mind...i am on counselling for god's sake!i don't need more complications...out of sight, out of mind...i even stop calling person A or ask about person A (just out of courtesy, mind u) to my family...i just want to not think about person A...but receiving that text from my mom is like a straw breaking the camel's back...person A is just testing my patience and now i feel like i want to burst...i wish person A can keep to her/his own grave...take care of ur own grave and don't go knocking on someone else's door....it's a metaphor...i wish she/he keeps to her/himself....i don't want to know about her/him anymore...i can be polite but i frankly, i don't respect person A...she/he is vicious and thoughtless...about the congratulating thing, i really forgot...i have things to think about which is more important than that...for god's sake, i talk to person B like once in a year!and not for even more than an hour!we barely know each other other than common ties...
i know i sound like a bitch, but hey what goes around, comes around...u used to treat us like dirt (still doing it in fact)....do u expect i have no feelings what-so-ever?i remember...i have a long memory...it will not fade...i just push the memories back in my mind...but please, all the pathetic attempts for sympathy doesn't get u anywhere with me...i act as if i care but i don't...u can be as sick as u claimed (or sick, in reality) but well, u have ur 'dear family' that u keep on claiming about...let them take care of u...i frankly (truly, sincerely) DON'T GIVE A DAMN...get off my back...just shut up and don't even think of calling my name...i don't want to know u...it's no special treat to know u...u hurt a lot of my loved ones...u deserve what u get...seriously, i can even cry crocodile tears on ur grave but please, in between then and now, keep ur distance, preferably 10000 km away...
-end of rant-
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