Live With No Regrets

Lately, this has been my mantra. I've repeated these words so many times, they're already etched on my mind. I've done a lot of mistakes, when I looked back, I feel really sorry for them. It's like watching a horror movie and you keep on screaming 'Don't open the door! Don't do it!' over and over again to the poor characters. Then again, hindsight is 20/20. Life is never that easy. 

So I tell myself, I will always live with no regrets. I'll always reflect on my actions and mistakes, and learn from them. After all, if I repeat the same mistake, a mistake which I've known about, I deserve to all the consequences and die because of it. 

I love my parents, Mama and Baba. Lately, living at home, I'm re-acquainting myself to Mama and Baba after almost 10 years of living away most of the time. I find adjustment is slow and difficult. I'm a young adult now, with firm ideas and opinions. I also have a very short fuse, which can worsen a situation when it's added up to my stubbornness. 

I used to think that I'll get along with my parents really well. It's not the case here. I found that I argue with them, a lot. Whenever I feel hurt, I want to hurt them too, which I did, a lot of times. It's very vicious. I will always feel deeply sorry afterwards. I think, in this case, this is one issue that I will always regret on. While I live to not regret my actions, arguments with my parents always make me feel like a total heel afterwards.

This is another lesson for all. Love your parents. Have patience with them. After all, words can never be erased, even with an apology.