My Non-Maternal Instinct

Lately, I've been thinking. Why is it so difficult for me to find babies of rich parents cute, but other random babies so very very very adorable? Babies, in general, are real charmers. They just have to babble incoherently and we'll coo like bird song. They just have to clap and laugh merrily and we'll smile until our face crack. They just have to run around, doing nonsensical things and we'll laugh like it's the funniest thing we've ever seen.

Basically babies and toddlers are cute. But why, why is it so difficult for me to think of my cousin's babies cute?   Is it because I'm indifferent to my cousin in the first place? Maybe because his parents are stick-in-the-mud backstabbers? There's that saying 'The sins of parents...'. Anyhow, I find random babies are very adorable that I feel like squeezing them like a teddy bear.

What my family needs now is a cute baby. A very fat baby who chuckles and play around. A baby who laughs at nothing and plays with his/her foot. WE NEED A BABY! 

I Am A Girl

I am very much a 50s girl who lives in the new millennium. I love gentlemen who open doors, send me home and pay for dinner. I love dresses, skirts and all things frilly. I love playing dress-up and putting on make up on my face. 

I love perfumes, especially fruity, sweet and fresh smelling ones. I love refreshing body soaps and fruity smelling shampoo. I love body mists and lotions. I love to have minimum shoulder length hair, never shorter than that. I love hair pieces. I love shoes, especially 4-inch heels. I love bags, any sort of bags, be it a hand clutch to luggage bags. I love bling blings like bangles, necklace and rings.

I love belts and cute socks. I love home decorating stuff like mirrors and bed sheets. I love fluffy towels. I love cooking. I love to smell nice and look nicer. I love fresh flowers. I love desserts like chocolate eclairs, cheesecake and pastries. Basically, I am a typical girl who loves all things cute, beautiful, nice and sweet-smelling.

Confessions Of A Friend

Have I told you that I love sad song? That include ballad, R&B, jazz and any songs with sad sad sad lyrics. I was browsing through some videos on Youtube and I found this. This is not a new song and it's in my playlist for a while.


However, I fell in love with the MV again. It's a very beautiful MV, Joo did a great job as the main actress :) 2AM are such a great ballad group, they have good songs and they sing beautifully.

2AM - Confessions Of A Friend

Credits: 2AM, JYPE

Everything's Gonna Be Alright

This song is sung by Sweetbox and released in 1997. I love it. I absolutely love it. I remember belting this song on the top of my lungs when I was really young. Back then, I didn't actually think of the meaning of the beautiful lyrics. It's such an inspiring song, it's so relevant to my life. Everything that is bad will come to pass. Everything will be alright.

Sweetbox - Everything's Gonna Be Alright

Everything's gonna be alright 

Everything's gonna be alright 

Whoever thought the sun would come crashing down 

My life in flames, my tears concrete the pain 

We feel the end, the darkest, deepest riverbed 

My book of life ain't complete without you here 

Alone I sit and reminisce, sometimes I miss your touch, your kiss, your smile 

And meanwhile you know I never cry 

Cuz deep down inside 

You know our love will never ever die

Everything's gonna be alright 

Everything's gonna be okay

Everything's gonna be alright 

Together we can take this one day at a time 

Can you take my breath away? 

Can you give him life today? 

Is everything gonna be okay? 

I'll be your strength 

I'll be here when you wake up 

Take your time, and I'll be here when you wake up 

I never thought my heart would miss a single beat 

Caress your hands, as I watch you while you sleep 

So sweet, I weep as I search within 

To find a cure, to bring you back again 

And the sun will rise, open up your eyes 

Surprise, just a blink of an eye I try, I try to be positive 

You're a fighter, so fight, wake up and live 

Everything's gonna be alright 

Everything's gonna be okay 

Everything's gonna be alright 

Together we can take this one day at a time 

Can you take my breath away? 

Can you give him life today? 

Is everything gonna be okay? 

I'll be your strength 

I'll be here when you wake up 

Everything's gonna be alright 

I'd give my life to only see you breathe again 

Hand in hand as we walk on the white sands 

To hear your voice, rejoice as you rise and say 

This is the day that I wake, and pray, okay? 

Tears in silence, as time just moves on 

You can't hear it though, but I'm playin' my favorite songs 

I miss you much, I wish you'd come back to me 

You see I'd wait a lifetime, cuz you're my destiny 

Everything's gonna be alright 

Everything's gonna be okay 

Everything's gonna be alright 

Together we can take this one day at a time 

Can you take my breath away? 

Can you give him life today? 

Is everything gonna be okay? 

I'll be your strength 

I'll be here when you wake up

Praise Be To Allah

Alhamdulillah I've finished my first year with no major problems :) I'm happy with my result, while it's not super stellar, it's still at the good end of the class. I'm happy I'm enjoying my classes and learned great things relevant to my future career. I'm happy to meet new friends, who, while they are way younger, they have the joie de vivre that I very much admire in someone so young.

I'm also happy that I'm still keeping in touch with Put, Dora, Nia and Joyce. Lately, Pink, Indah and Kak Tun have started to contact me, so my joy is complete. These are good people who are very special in my life. I'm still missing Evie, but since she's crazy busy, I understand. She already visited me earlier this year anyway :) Why am I whining like a little kid who got 10 candies instead of 100?

I am thankful that my parents, Mama and Baba are healthy. May Allah SWT will always bless them with health and wealth and happiness. I am also doubly thankful to Allah SWT that Nenek Maridah, my beloved granny is relatively healthy and well :) Nenek, you may say that you are not as spry as before, but you will always remain my beloved.

I am grateful that my siblings, Jaja and Totis (she hated that moniker, but I LOVE IT!), graduated with good results. May your Phd and Master studies go as well and may both of you will always be blessed with wealth! I am also happy that Little Boy is growing up well (still bratty and spoiled, but oh well) and just sat for his PMR examinations. May you be blessed with all As (8As) just like the rest of your siblings :) As for B, this year is such a trying year for you, but if you pout less and be nicer to your siblings, you'll probably be happier, no?

Mama

Mama is the greatest mother on earth. She is my greatest mother. She knows what her children love, she knows our strengths and weaknesses and she loves us no matter what. She's easily hurt. Mama is also the most hardworking person I know. She's very intelligent and she is proud of us, her children.

Mama is very beautiful. She's one of the greatest cook I've known, in fact, in my book, she's the greatest. She loves flowers and Mama also loves knitting and sewing. There are millions of great words to describe Mama, and one thing that stood out from the rest is, she still loves us even when we make a lot of mistakes. I rarely say these words, and these words are the words I know you should hear all the time:

I Love You So Much MAMA!

Jun.K aka Junsu Of 2PM - Alive

I like. I really really like this!!!! I personally think Junsu is supremely talented :) Kim Junsu (aka Daegu Hyung-nim/Broadcast Man/Junsu Panda) composed a lot of great songs. Kan Mi Yeon's Sunshine, Dream High OST Kajima and 2PM's Hot are a few of his great songs. Here's his solo debut single, Alive, which I adore!

Jun.K (of 2PM) - Alive

Credits: Kim Junsu, JYPE

However, it's only sold as soft copy, as in no physical copy to be had. And to add insult to injury, it's only available to SOUTH KOREANS!!! I tried to buy it on MNet, it's not available to foreigners, well at least it was for me. I tried Melon, and I gave up after looking hard at the Hangul.

So, I'm writing an online message to the pertinent people about this issue here:

Dear JYPE and Jun.K,

Why are you guys being like this?

Don't you know this ehem 2* year-old noona is in love with Junsu?

Why are you restricting/limiting my love?

Why can't I just hold my Junsu, err my Junsu's single, Alive?

Why is it only available online?

Why is it only available for South Koreans?

Why? 

Why?

Why?

Thank you so much for spending your precious 23 seconds to read my loving words.

Lots of love and kisses and hugs and erhmmm something else,

Harley

Poppy The Panda

I am officially in love with DIY stores. They sell the greatest things ever. I found a hand-fan for only RM1.30 (considering my unemployment status, it's the best thing ever for me!) and it is super super super cute! This new Hanif family treasure is called Poppy the panda (yes, I named it). Come, let's meet my new friend!

This photo of Poppy was taken with my purple-pink wall :) Please ignore the alienish-looking hand >.<

Isn't this awesome? The fan got this mini-Poppy attached at the end of the handle!

Poppy against my white door. Poppy is actually translucent.

A bag B got when she made a new pair of spectacles. It's very colourful, it reminds me of Korean hip hop. Now, why is that? I actually don't know -_-