Thank You

By today, I have depended and is still depending on a lot of people to go on...Life is difficult for me right now...I know 99% of these difficulties can be blamed on me...I am still learning and still is making a lot of huge mistakes...But as someone close to me said 'this is not the end, there is more difficult things ahead'...I know this...But still, now this is the most difficult thing I have to face...

I am very thankful I am stronger than before...I have faith, I don't feel useless (I do but I am trying hard not to think that way)...In the future, all these can be written as part of my memoir (I am pretty sure no one cares, but who cares?!!!...It's my life, my story, no matter how stinky or uneventful it is)...

Anyway, I have been given endless chances by Allah SWT and other people...I will never be forgetful...However, I want to take this time and chance, while I am still standing here, breathing on this merciful earth to be thankful...I am thankful to ever merciful Allah SWT...I am thankful for my life, no matter how horrible I made it...

• I am thankful to my ever forgiving and loving mama and baba...I will keep this moment in my time and I promise I will give my all to give this all back...
• I am thankful to my sister Jaja, who always listen and who is always the voice of strength and practicality...
• I am thankful to my other siblings Gegel, Alin and Aboy, who always pick up the phone to listen to my ramblings and make me feel good when I feel really down...
• I am thankful to Nenek Maridah, who loves me...I love you so much Nenek...I am sorry I am such a bad granddaughter...
• I am thankful to Nia, whom I tell everything, who force me to face this, whom I really love...
• I am thankful to Dora, who is always kind while I am definitely not and who always find something good to look for...
• I am thankful to Fazan, who is the voice of reason, who help me see things clearly...
• I am thankful to Yaya, who dispenses hugs all around and promises me a spot as her bridesmaid even I am such a horrible friend...
• I am thankful to Rachel, who always cheers me up with her sense of humour and generosity...
• I am thankful to Joyce, who takes care of me when I am in need...
• I am thankful to Evie, who gives and gives and always make time for me...
• I am thankful to all the nice people who make me smile or pave my way for me...I love all of you, and thank you for always forgiving me...

I am not perfect...I will always alway make mistakes...For that, I am sorry...No matter what, I will love all of you...