please kill me now

what are killer words for an attractive (or so she believed, let her keep her delusion), single & desperate not-so-but-still-young woman (not indicative to dear ole moi, please pay attention here)?yes, i will educate all of you poor, misguided, clueless male species out there here....the words can be described under the heading of 'boring and bland and you can kill urself now'....the list of words that fall under that category are:

• sweet
• cute
• nice

and any word synonymous to these 3....i've been described by these word, hmm, let me think...yup maybe 34056 times by mostly, yes, the poor, misguided species we called the males...and in my whole 22 (give or take) years of life i have never have a boyfriend....ever...what can i make of that statement?...from my power of deduction, linking the fact of my boyfriendless state and description of 'sweetness, cuteness, or niceness', i've concluded that these are killer words of male-female relationship...really (when in reality, probably none of these so-called males are actually attracted to me, or me to them, but hey, this is my blog, i write what i want anyway)....


these words don't even describe me properly...first of all, i've never been 'sweet, nice or cute'....ever....in my life....i'm 'quirky, bubbly, a handful, crazy, unique, weird' (based on description from my girl friends)....so....i like the descriptions by my girlfriends better...at least i got some resemblance of personality here...no personality is a kiss of death to me...and the best of all, kak tun (a dear dear dear friend) had told me i'm 'beautiful' personality-wise'...it was a beautiful moment in my small dismal life....


so, to all the boys out there, i know u probably will never fall violently in love once u clasp ur eyes on me (hey i'm no angelina jolie material, and never will be), but please, for the sake of my ever-so fragile self-esteem, don't ever tell me in the face that i'm 'sweet, nice or cute'...ever....keep that tidbit for ur enjoyment....makes me feel more alone than ever...


p/s: joyce, i took back what i said...please pass me any of the before-mentioned guys u don't want...i'm THAT desperate!hahahaha....