venting my spleen

it's confirmed...i ABSOLUTE*UCKING SURE I HATE MALAYSIAN INTERNET!!!!!!!!!!


which part of developing world is malaysia regarding to it's internet???it's so slow, it's messy, service is like a pile of *hit, anything related to internet in malaysia puts my blood to boil....wake up malaysia!!!!we need competent internet connection to be parallel to the developed world!!!

p/s: please excuse my language, grammar and my un-PC-ness...it is meant to be that way...

lips don't lie

.........NOT!!!!!.........lips do lie...my lips are chapped and dark....they look like they belong to a heavy smoker and i hate my lips...i don't even smoke!...it feels unfair somehow....yesterday, i took some pictures with rachel and i noticed that i looked really bad...chapped and blaken lips, due to dry climate, lack of chapstick use (blame it on the exam fever) and lack of fluid....dry scaly scarred facial skin, due to the same reasons as the lips excepting the chapstick (substitute that to lotion application)...bloated face due to crazy sleeping hours and weight gain (let's shout this to the world!)...life sucks...


p/s: my lips are supposed to be beautiful, depicting femininity at the cusp of youth (whatever that is)....

remember

packing is such a pain!to make me happier (and lessen the pain) i listen to songs...songs that keep on replaying in my head like a broken record...songs like bsb's like a child...such a beautiful song...and sing to paul anka's put your head on my shoulder...


and look at pictures...i'll miss u so much rachel!u r my best friend who understood me!rachel plz plz plz get a facebook account soon!!!we'll set facebook on fire, u & i *wink wink*!!!!hahahaha *fangirls screammmmm!!!*....

both of us posers ^^ (at the corner of queen and shortland sts where we got too lazy to walk and sat on the newly built wood bench, enjoying our third baklava in 2 consecutive days)

things i will remember about rachel:

• our dinners....we do enjoy our gastronomic feasts!she always always always get me dessert!love love love u rachel!
  
• her generosity....she's such a great person, who rarely gets angry and put in bad words....i am the bitch in this beautiful friendship with my 'shits, bitch' and so on huhuhu....now i feel bad...anyway, she listens to my 'bitching' sessions (u know this well rachel, week after week)....
• our mutual love of all things entertaining...asian entertainment, that is...from korean to japanese dramas n movies, to pop groups and idols, let us release our fangirls scream!!!!!*sorry evie, u must suffer, thanks so much for ur patience!*...she hooked me into these addictive songs such as super junior's sorry sorry and snsd's gee...we also have our endless discussions of bishies and cuties...our latest target - jang geun suk aka hwang tae kyung....
• willingness to do what i want...such as take crazy pictures, watch movie, eat at my favourite places, watch insensible (or is it?) youtube videos etc etc...
  
• and some things only u & i will ever know....
  

p/s: as i count the days, i will miss more and more of all of my great friends i'm leaving behind...christina, nia, joyce, dora, yaya, fazan, amin, choon wei, gaurav, stacey, chen, evie, nicole, jessie, kak tun and a host of other people....ur friendships help me through my years here and i'll treasure all the good, not-so-great and crazy moments, always!

'see this my way'

evie got a whole crazy view on people...she's funny that way...today, we went to auckland fish market, she felt like fish and chips....i ended up eating most of her chips...okay, before i deviate more off topic, let's move on to the main topic...we went to get our fish and chips...i managed to be clumsy and accidentally spilled our tartar sauce...please don't be alarmed...most of the sauce was managed to be saved by my own fast reflex...and we bought 2 more sauces, an alioli dip and tomato sauce...anyway, apart from falling in lust, errr, infatuation to the beautiful friendly guy at the counter, evie managed to make all these quirky, unexpected remarks about people we saw along the way...


witness these:

1. first unfortunate guy: the beautiful young caucasian guy at the counter of the fish and chips place...he got really really intense turquoise (were they blue?) eyes....he was being friendly, asking about our weekend and making uhmm very uncomfortable comment about the size of our meals....anyway, he was generally being a social creature we humans are....evie's verdict: 'he must be such a player...he knew he's such an all-that, u know a hottie...'.....*silent moment*.....errr evie, the point was, we don't know who he really is...hehehe...
2. second unlucky guy: on the way back home, we passed this beautiful residential area of high end apartment complexes in front of the harbour near the viaduct...in front of the glass apartment complex (the one closest to the market) we saw this guy walking a cute pair of short small doggies....they (the dogs) were terribly cute...we commented on how cute the dogs were...evie's verdict: 'he must have used the dogs to get girls...u know, such a lame way to attract girls'....errr....i only noticed the dogs...hahahahaha....
3. third hapless person/s: on the other side of the apartment complex, now closer to the viaduct, we saw this bunch of probably filthy rich people having a great luncheon on a yacht...they were seen dipping bread with some dips...anyway, the looked like they were enjoying a social scene amongst friends...evie's verdict: 'they must be showing off'....okay....i don't even know what to say to that...i just laughed....

evie is really funny that way...she sees things differently...listen closely to her comments...very inspiring...refreshing too...and hilarious!hahahaha...

so much to do....

life is full of surprises....hmm....just love those words of wisdom....got nothing to do with the whole scheme of things in this particular post but yeah, sound very profound and deep...anyway...i'm connected to the hip to my internet connection...i will so miss my beloved relatively fast broadband when i go back to my home country....i feel like hoarding lots of files to download...so many things to save...my new favourite drama, you're beautiful, so many shoujo mangas, latest fullmetal alchemist episodes, the mentalist latest eppie, so old and new songs etc etc etc....should i upgrade for the final time before thursday?


sadly, i have so many things to do...shipping company to call, money to part with, things to pack or throw, friends to say bye-bye to, emails to check (haven't done this for ages, i'm in denial), clothes, accessories, shoes and presents to shop, luggage to pack, lunch and dinner dates....and so many more things to do...i'm on contemplation mode right now...so lost...ah listening to hush hush by pcd right now....need female empowerment *background song - 'hush hush, hush hush'*....ah did i mentioned this beautiful young man with beautiful intense eyes evie and i saw at the auckland fish market where we ate our crazy lunch today (ate lots of battered seafood with lots dips and sauces....ah not forgetting the organic chocolate and vanilla bean ice cream following)....just a valid point for aesthetic appreciation of the day...

please refer to the post below (this one)

forgot to mention, eighth item in my new favourite list: this mini doughnuts that are (were?) used to be sold at aetoa square in between the city hall and imax buildings on weekends....now they are available near the quad on thursdays or near viaduct....they are oily, small, sweet, soft and damnably good in the melt-in-ur-mouth kinda way...my guilty indulgence (i have lots but these doughnuts are really heavenly)...kak tun doesn't like the cinammon sprinkles and joyce doesn't prefer the oiliness in terms of health but i still love them...they are way way way better than any other doughnuts i've eaten!

ode to my new favourite things

new items keep propping up in my absolute favourites list....please check the list below to understand more:

1. first new thing to love: a korean idol drama called you're beautiful....it's silly but i love it anyway...the guys are cute and the girl is cute (am i repeating myself here?)...tae kyung is my special favourite with the incongruity of his 'manliness' to his 'girliness'....his girliness is manifested by his girl-thiness, his wacky too-fashionable to the point that some of them are too androgynous-looking to be more like girl's outfit than a man's and his thin girly features (especially his facial bone structure)....his manliness is shown in his really really sexy deep voice, manly actions (talk and walk, thank god he doesn't walk like a girl!) and great acting (nothing to do with manliness but it's worth mentioning)....
2. second new love: dark chocolate...not really new here but this propped up during the crazy exam period...ate lots and lots of dark chocolate...the darker it is, the greater it is...my personal favourite are 70% cadbury old gold and whittaker's dark chocolate bars...devoured like 4 bars in a period of 2 weeks...all forgiven here (i need my own forgiveness and none other for this particular sin)....
3. third new favourite love: shoes...nothing new again, but rediscovering it since last time due to lack of time and resources...just bought this really crazy cute skin toned flats with cute ruffles and button on the toe area from rubies (or is it ruby?)...anyway, shoes are great...they heal all wounds (superficial but superficiality is needed at times of need)....ah n the higher and the more the painful the shoes are, the greater the shoes are in attractiveness term!
   
4. forth new love: black widow style....u know, the 40s headgears...the black and white feathers and nets...the slightly skewed positioning of the headpieces...the funeral style feathers and nets...i don't know whether u got me...anyway, i probably don't have the guts to wear them in public even though this style is coming back (too much going on in my whole outfit already to quote evie) but i love love love this style!
5. fifth new love: maxi dress...yes, this style has come and gone and come again but i've never have even a slight interest in it before...now i'm mighty interested...especially these purple flower maxi and gray, white and black random patterned dress i saw today at new lynn mall with kak tun...they are as beautiful as they will be a drain to my pocketbook...
6. sixth new love: big floppy hats...very summer and very hollywood...make me feel mysterious and glamourous...simply gorgeous!have got not even one but well, will be happy to get one as a present *hint hint wink wink*....
7. seventh new love: this list is getting longer by seconds, and half of it is filled with articles of clothing or part of an outfit....this guy named andy...not!caught u!hahaha....can think of none now...hahaha....i'm tiring u, dear gentle readers and more importantly myself...
   

spot the main point

funny that blogging has become one of the things i got addicted to...i seemed to have millions of things to say to share with the whole wide world (not that the world is interested mind u)...just weird....a year ago, i would say 'blogging what?', heck i wasn't interested...now, i remember things and write them down...from crazy things to weird things...anything is worth mentioning...anyway, the point of this is, i missed talking to rachel and nia...missed u guys!that has nothing to do with blogging but i just want to say it....fuh...it's off my shoulder now...

backstreet boys - i love love love love love love them!

a short mention here (tired and my brain synapse are not synapsing properly at this point)...i love backstreet boys (keep the backstreet pride alive!!!)....not embarrassed to say that i'm a huge fan since i was 12....they are pop and my music taste has evolved (less pop nowadays but i still do enjoy pop)....so what?...i love music so yes, their new album 'this is us' is really great (i love them and the songs, i may be biased but who cares!bsb are great!)....please take a few minutes to listen to some of their new songs and love them like i do!hehehe....my favourite tracks are (in no particular order):

• this is us (please stand up!)
  
• straight through my heart (this one takes quite a while to get used to for me hehe)
• bigger (reminds me of their old tracks)
  
• if i knew then (like it just because)
  
• masquerade (i got this crazy mental image of scene....smoky night in venice near the river with people in beautiful dresses and clothes masquerading in beautiful masks, dancing to this beautiful music, while the boys were weaving between these people looking for special something/someone)
• shattered (the first song that actually got the honour to replay in my brain like a broken record!)

go n listen to them!their new album may sound different and they are deviating from their old styles but hey, new can be great!did i mention i love the bsb?

this year in memory diary

as usual per every year my bday passed relatively with few scars...my first text bday wish (according to auckland time) came from fazan (love love love u fazan!she texted me from the hospital, she got a night shift, poor dear) and jaja (msian time and her wish, as usual, was crazy and quirky)....honourable mention to gegel as she actually called me at 5 am (auckland time, 12 pm msian time) on the dot to wish me!....not to mention she actually quoted how much she had to topup for her phone credit to call me (errrr)....thousand thanks to dora, yaya and fazan who took time from their crazy busy schedule to take to to my first bday lunch at food alley....u guys are the best!


millions of love to mama and baba who called and texted me to wish me happy bday!this is a really really really rare action for them and because of that, i love u guys more and more!another lovely thanks to evie and nicole and joyce who took me to another bday lunch on the 13th of november, after my last exam, to one of my favourite japanese place, the sushi place on that alley near saigonz and esquires near the vector areana (funny i never remember its name!) and gifted me my favourite dessert at the yum char place near foodtown (ooops countdown now, and i remember that yum char place, it's called china yum char!!!)...i ate 2 of the heavenly durian snow (and got to taste the mango version, which, sadly, still come far second behind the durian one!)....


i have so many memories of that lunch...one scene worth mentioning, the cold and evie's dressing....nicole was mentioning of the 'sexiness' of it (she used a far more hmmm descriptive word, it was funny!) and the nice warm sunny day suddenly turned cold and windy on our way to the dessert place...joyce was concerned for evie as she was the only one without sweater and shuddering in cold (all of us were garbed comfortably and well-covered in pants and sweater, well at least nicole and i did, joyce was wearing short skirt, but she, at least did have a cardigan on)....and evie's great response to that, yes, 'it's all in the mind'...coldness can be controlled by the mind...what a great philosophy evie....i learned a great life lesson!hehehehe....


anyway, after that joyce and i had a great session of karaoke at our apartment's tv room (we hogged that place for more than 4 hours straight, to the consternation of other people)...we sang and sang (at least i did, joyce were being lazy on the couch most of the time)....of course i paid tribute to old favourites, hotel california (the eagles), careless whisper (wham/george michael), britney spears songs, backstreet boys songs (my absolute absolute favourite), carpenters songs (that includes mr. postman and close to you) and incubus' drive (any songs forgotten, no offense intended, my brain is fried at this point)...sadly there was no lemon tree in the list huhuhu, that's one of my old time favourite too...joyce introduced me to a new favourite, paul anka's put your head on my shoulder....my future husband must sing this song for me (plus the requisite bsb's as long as you love me)....


the same friday night joyce, angela (gela aka joyce's cute cute cute sister who made me a hip bday card herself!) and i ate at mentatz on high street (again a japanese place well favoured by evie and joyce, and yes, i've eaten there a great many times too)...joyce sweetly bought me my favourite cake, the chocolate mousse cake from the gateau house next to nandos and my favourite korean place and the 3 of us devoured 85% of the cake once we reached my place after dinner (after a crazy photoshoot session)....and yes, i'm sick of the egg don (which i always ordered at mentatz) and after the health comment, i've refrained on ordering the oyster don so i ended up ordering grilled tofu don which is tres yummy!


ah to end my nice bday 2009 celebration a handful of my friends wished me a happy bday on facebook...thanks u guys!i'm really sorry for being unable to thank u guys person by person but i know who u are and i treasure the wishes!!!let this be my special dedication of thanks for the wishes!!!

please kill me now

what are killer words for an attractive (or so she believed, let her keep her delusion), single & desperate not-so-but-still-young woman (not indicative to dear ole moi, please pay attention here)?yes, i will educate all of you poor, misguided, clueless male species out there here....the words can be described under the heading of 'boring and bland and you can kill urself now'....the list of words that fall under that category are:

• sweet
• cute
• nice

and any word synonymous to these 3....i've been described by these word, hmm, let me think...yup maybe 34056 times by mostly, yes, the poor, misguided species we called the males...and in my whole 22 (give or take) years of life i have never have a boyfriend....ever...what can i make of that statement?...from my power of deduction, linking the fact of my boyfriendless state and description of 'sweetness, cuteness, or niceness', i've concluded that these are killer words of male-female relationship...really (when in reality, probably none of these so-called males are actually attracted to me, or me to them, but hey, this is my blog, i write what i want anyway)....


these words don't even describe me properly...first of all, i've never been 'sweet, nice or cute'....ever....in my life....i'm 'quirky, bubbly, a handful, crazy, unique, weird' (based on description from my girl friends)....so....i like the descriptions by my girlfriends better...at least i got some resemblance of personality here...no personality is a kiss of death to me...and the best of all, kak tun (a dear dear dear friend) had told me i'm 'beautiful' personality-wise'...it was a beautiful moment in my small dismal life....


so, to all the boys out there, i know u probably will never fall violently in love once u clasp ur eyes on me (hey i'm no angelina jolie material, and never will be), but please, for the sake of my ever-so fragile self-esteem, don't ever tell me in the face that i'm 'sweet, nice or cute'...ever....keep that tidbit for ur enjoyment....makes me feel more alone than ever...


p/s: joyce, i took back what i said...please pass me any of the before-mentioned guys u don't want...i'm THAT desperate!hahahaha....