circus

hey i'm a flesh n blood girl so it's no wonder if i reaaaallly like britney spears' circus...it's catchy...anyway i heard this song when i was browsing around in newmarket...it seems to me that all the stores played this song...kinda brainwashing me when i think about it...coming to think of it, the only things that i can remember from my window shopping trip in newmarket was this gorgeous blue/yellow/red-see-through dress from portmans n britney spears' circus...wow...never thought of the day when britney will be etched in my brain...wow...hahaha...anyway, today's trip was my second day window shopping trips that will probably end tomorrow...


i went to st lukes yesterday...lunch was fantastic coz i ate this really fabulous turkish chicken pizza (the base was sooo soft n yummy yum yum!)...then i went browsing around with indah...the fun part was that i fell in love with so many things...there were these beautiful dresses in kookai which were on sale...then there were these beautiful rings (blue n pink) that i got attached to....there was also this to-die-for grey clutch which was also on sale in equip!!!i really regret the fact that i didn't buy that clutch since i couldn't find it in newmarket's equip today *sob sob*...


surprisingly today we found a mexican stall in one of newmarket's food courts that serves halal food!so i got this reaaaallly spicy chicken burritos while indah ordered chicken pomegranate and lamb in saffron sauce served with saffron rice....the two dishes were heavenly!here i thought that spicy is not that spicy (usually) here, so innocently i ordered for a really really spicy burritos...so not surprisingly the lady that served me put lotsa chilli powder (uncooked mind u, so can u imagine the level of spiciness here?) in my burritos...i got overheated by the spiciness...hehehe...


anyway, tomorrow is onehunga's turn for my visit...let's see if i will fall in love with any items...ahhh....now that i remember i WILL definitely buy those shoes in glassons!i've been wanting to buy them ever since last year so yeah, they're on sale so i WILL definitely get them!wait for me my babies!!!

cultural interpretations

funny how my professors and student advisors in school said that i was 'very polite, respectful and formal' when they first met me...they got this impression by either reading my emails or talking to me...the thing is as a Malay Malaysian i'm so used to being respecful to older generation or authority figures (teachers and such)...so by calling a person by his/her title (miss, mrs and so on) is 'normal' and using a formal language and ending my emails with 'Regards, My Fullname' is not out of ordinary to me...


when i first arrived here, i found it awkward to call my professors by their name...calling Dr. Blyth as Phil is so weird that i resolved to not calling him at all!when i looked back, it is quite hilarious and now i'm getting used to it...i still write my emails and text messages formally and i still do have the tendency to be really respectful and formal when talking to my professors and student advisors but i wasn't as bad as the first time i arrived....


when i got home, i felt so comfortable calling authority figures by their names, i got quite a shock when i heard my sisters calling their professors so formally...i guess all cultures have different approach on what is deemed as respectful and what is not...my personal take on this is: i don't really mind on either ways...even so, i felt calling a person by his/her name creates a feeling of closeness and opens up oppurtunity of being frank and open...still, calling older people in Malaysia by his/her name does sound funny...i probably think that it is possible to do so here in Auckland since it is culturally acceptable to do so...

hunger aka singing tummy!

do u notice that when you are extremely hungry you can smell food everywhere?funny coz the thing is i can smell food coming out of my printer next to my laptop now...i'm not really hungry per se coz i have eaten my dinner (yummy rice!yay!) but it seems like i hunger for my midnight snacks, which i don't have...i have some oats, powdered milk, some candies and a frozen marble cake...not exactly snacking material....be warned, u are not supposed to eat so much cake in a day (which i did today n i got sick just by thinking of a cake!)...now i feel lost...i'm supposed to lose weight (this supposedly should be done like 10 years ago n still weight loss remains my new year's wish and lowest priority)....


ahhhh i can still smell this real nice foody smell...now i can imagine all the nice food being spread out on my table...ohhh myyyy....all the colours....all the textures....all the smell wafting, tempting even the strictest, most disciplined dieter!...but alas, that's why it's call a dream...the smell?yeah probably coming from my more than vivid imagination right now...good thing is i can always drink a glass of plain water (until i puke) and pat my back , saying 'ye good girl!it's not good to binge eat/eat so late at night before u sleep!u don't want to turn into a blimp!'....k as for my my resolve is made!no more eating after 6!....


well, that resolve will last probably let's say....when my allowance comes in?money means access to more food!^^

perfect apartment hunting

apartment hunting can be described as tedious at best and tiring at worst...maybe it's a bit cynical but let's face it, after 3 years of moving in and out of a number of apartments, someone will be jaded...with a limited budget at hand, i felt like a housewife shopping for the best bargains out there...

• the perfect location - near uni, got great access to transportation, not too noisy (yes i've lived on a main street before n to be perfectly honest the noisy sound of cars zapping by is not bothersome, it's the police, ambulance, fire trucks sirens and drunk/noisy party poopers at 3 o'clock in the morning singing 'yeah yeah yeah' that did it), near convenience stores n restaurants n foodtown/asian supermarket...
• the perfect rent - less that what's on our budget is awesome but reality is it's is usually the other way round....
• the perfect apartment - medium size so that it is manageble, about new furnitures, double beds, study desks, biiiiggg wardrobe (this is an absolute must for girls with biiiigggg amount of clothes that simply cannot be discarded), clean carpeting n furniture, clean bathroom n showers, big fridge to store tremendous amount of food, tv, washing machine n dryer, good security, extra amenities such as pool or gym or both, balcony for view, upper level apartment for less noise, access to phone/tv/fast broadband, clean whiteware and reasonably big rooms with windows (believe me i once got this apartment with one of the rooms sans window n my flatmate is getting permanent claustrophobia n lack of oxygen syndrome)...
• the perfect agent - this is also a must, an apartment can sometimes be not perfect so a great and understanding agent to communicate with is a must (based on recent personal experience)....

getting an apartment without letting fee + gst will be super-awesome but sadly it's extremely difficult...truthfully, hunting for the ideal apartment is not so exciting anymore for me...i'd rather have an apartment that fits the above criteria and stay for long long time but my time here is ending...moving in n out is not a nice experience...it's tiring and headachy...i don't even have proper transportation to move my stuff to n from the storage so i must avail to other people's help which less than ideal...i'd rather not bother people...i don't even have a license thus no driving...sadly, the truth is moving out n putting my stuff in the storage for summer is a must to save money...can't say i'd relish to repeat the experience over n over n over...n magically i just learned that bargaining for rent is possible (if the term of stay is long enough!)....why didn't i know this earlier???

now i'm moving to an old apartment at an old historic building which is still reconstructing...the beauty of the apartment is the reasonably big size of the rooms and the cheap rent...i'm reserving judgement of the apartment as the ongoing construction may put things into a new prespective...n the hilly area to climb (this is not a metaphor but the truth) to get to school is quite off-putting but let's see how things go...i may probably lose weight because of all the exersize!for now, we'll see...

procrastination to will...

since the world is formed, since the run rises from the east, since my mom pronounced me lazy, i've been known as a procrastinator...funny thing is i always leave a bit of things unfinished just to do it at the very last second...i plan n plan n do thousands of lists everyday (i love writing lists, it's as if my world will turn black without it) but yet again, i will always leave my work until it's 'time's up buddy!'....


welcome to the world of procrastinator!it's not funny, it's not cute but it's my reality...i even made a pact to myself 'hey!since u got like gazillion of time why doncha do this n that now???i will reward myself with a nice dinner or some good olde shopping!'....but noooooo i must not touch these works...even if i do, i must leave some for tomorrow...it's like a cat leaving a trail of his piss around, i'm leaving the trail of unfinished business behind me....


sadly this also reminds me that my life will always be an unfinished business...i once thought 'i need to write my will somewhere just in case someone will pack up my stuff when i die n find it...won't it be wonderful (too much korean dramas i'm afraid)'...then i proceeded to find a piece of paper n settle down to write up my will...


here is goes: 'to my beloved mama n baba, i leave u my love n my old ratty pillow that i love so much...to my dear sister jaja, i leave u my old mobile phone to cherish or sell or flush down the toilet...to my recalcitrant n thoughtful sister gegel, i leave u all of my cherished books that i know u will never touch (they're moulding n building their own nests in my bookcase at home)....'...there...i just realise i don't even have one possession worth giving away!!!they're just a bunch of stuff that are full of personal sentiments, thus unusable n not even valuable to others...in the span of 22 years that i've been living n breathing (yes, yes, yes i know in reality i'm wee bit older than that but what's a year or two or even three between pals?)...i don't even have any cash to leave behind!i even owe some erhmm not so little money with my credit card!i can put all my things in 40 boxes n that sums up my life....waaaaaiittt my books my worth a lot...avid collector that i am, i even saved my my precious weekly allowance when i was small to buy books...the light of my life....


anyway reflecting back to the topic in hand...procrastination n will-writing....i decide to think about these matter deeply...in another time!^^

need to know basis

i am a boring person...well, i am talkative but i lost thread of what i am talking about and people generally don't understand me...i am lost right now and in need of direction but as per usual doesn't know how to get it...loves music but rarely listen to them anymore (strange)...loves food (so need to lose weight)...ah when it comes to weight, the second most important thing is exercise (which i tremendously hate!)...loves clothes, jewelries, shoes (shoe slut, yes that's what i am) and bags...in love with anything printed (books books n more books!keep 'em coming mr printer errr publishers n writers)....

i generally thought i am outspoken but then again i am shy to strangers (some may think i am a snob!)...loves my mom, dad, granny maridah, and all of my sometimes-sweet-most-of-the-time-not 3 sisters and brother...loves money (coz i can shop, but have little of it)...in love with travelling ('tho haven't been to many places)...ah last but maybe most importantly, bf-less!!!!

yes, more of me coming so keep posted!(need to do something with the whole creepy layout soon!)

what do I have in my lair u asked???

well...it's a legitimate question...interestingly now i have nothing....will think of something soon...so bored!help me!aidez-moi!!!