the generous moi

i didn't know i have a streak of generosity a mile wide...when i was small (it's well established that a general social trait must be instilled when one's still a child, it'll last longer that way *shrug*) i used to offer my second sister, gegel to anyone who thought she was so darned cute and adorable...i even agreed for a trade-up for a bunch of white cotton-tailed rabbits with this cuddly-bear uncle who was so fond of gegel (i don't remember him exactly but i really remember the rabbits)...


gegel was a very very adorable baby and child...she was chubby, cute, with atypical bronze and golden-like tufts of hair and very clear milky white skin...this is in fact quite amazing, comparing gegel when she was a baby to jaja or i as babies...she was like a caucasian baby, very desirable to lots of asian/malay parents...i really secretly thought there was some mistake at the hospital she was born and mama got the wrong baby....but alas, when she grew up, she kinda share similar facial features to the rest of us, conforming there is no mistaken babies trade....but the main story here, i remember i used to offer her to anyone who expressed any slight interest...i am indeed very generous...let's hope gegel would also be generous to me and not murder me when i'm asleep...

mary, mary, quite contrary...

or a newly revised version: harley, harley, quite contrary...women are fickle and contrary creature...god creates us to confound the other half of the population...at least, in my case, this is exactly true...i'm a contrary person, not only confusing the better half of the society (let them think that) but also my bretheren...this is to say i do things in a crazy different way...


usually, i'll be so hungry, i go to sleep eating nothing, promising myself a better tomorrow (somehow sound pathetic, i know, but too lazy to cook & to miserly to buy food)...i always eat at night, usually after class...if i don't cook, i eat whatever i have in hand, or go hungry...sometimes, it's the other way round...i have tons of food (u know, time of the month...not menstrual, allowance time!!!) and i am very motivated to cook...that equals eating too much until my tummy feels all stretched out to the max and at the edge of bursting...like now....


the moral of the story here, i should learn to live moderately...alas, life doesn't always be that perfect...and to end today's ramblings, i feel alone T_T...evie's staying at jessie's coz she's out partying and megu went out in the evening and has yet to come back...it's like a flashback of my holidays...they desert me, traitors!hahahaha....nah...i should go shower, study and sleep (in the order)....


p/s: to answer nicole's twice asked question - 'will u come clubbing with us (with the rest of the gang)?'...my answer - 'interesting question nicole'

pp/s (is there such thing???): did go and buy perfume....err 2 perfumes...escada ocean lounge & hugo boss xx for women...and some other things *shifty eyes*...getting poorer by seconds...yesterday, bought fish n chips n taro slushy (at least shared the slushy with nicole so yeah not so bad) and going for a nice dinner with jae, alex and jessica soon...so yeah, more and more spending!someone put a solid padlock to my bank account please (or at least my credit card)!!!ah n shiitake mushroom tastes sooo yummy, it has this meaty flavour (unrelated at all but i need to state this rather desperately!)...

ewww!!!get a room!

okay, maybe not a room...but somewhere where there is no human to be disgusted by u would be great k...nia told me this 'ewww' story that happened to her yesterday...she was studying at the second floor computer space in kate edgar....u know how crowded that space is every afternoon...people have to wait to get a computer...


anyway, she was studying and in between reading, she looked around...she saw this guy (her description - caucasian male, youngish, probably a first year, with pimply face and orangey hair) near her table and he was studying calculus (from the cover of his opened textbook)...then she saw something no one should ever see in such a public and prestigious place like a university public area....this guy had his fly open and his errr 'privates' escaped from his pants...it wasn't an unfortunate accident...he was deliberately touching himself!!!


do u know what i'm talking about here???email me if u don't!anyway, that's truly yucky!especially for a girl!!!nia said that guy saw her looking at him and he smiled!!!sheepishly she admitted but still!!!i would've ran and never look back if i'm caught in such a compromising position (quoting from so many romance books), not that i'd do something like that in public, mind u!!!my advice is - if u are that desperate, go to the toilet!it's private!no wandering eyes will be offended by such display...


more importantly, that's just plain lacking in taste...can u imagine touching the computer, the mouse, the chair and the table that the guy touched (after he had done whatever he had done)???remind me to buy a sanitiser soon!!!

should i?should i not?

god knows i'm shallow enough a 3-year old child won't be drowned in my head (a statement the opening sentence...is that a good sign?)...let's talk about shopping and sale shall we?i'm saving all the money i can spare...the reason is, shall we say that i have some ideas with that saved money...enter smith and caughey's (u know the hallowed ultra expensive shopping place that rarely been visited by dear ole' moi coz of economic purposes) into the picture and it's massive crazy sale...things like designer perfumes, toilettes, shoes and home decorations are sold at this crazy (affordable) price, tempting poor buggers like who are supposed to be on strict shopping diet...why are all of my favourite things are on sale???that's the main question here...my theories are:

• they are evil...the make us salivate and at the end, we will definitely break...i bought 2 aromatic diffusers coz i thought they were cheap (can u imagine designer aromatic diffuser are like $13 for 2 bottles?!!!!)...now i'm having this 'should i, should i not' internal (and not so internal as i did ask rini just now about it) debate about whether should i buy this divine escada ocean lounge perfume (it's a 50ml edt that cost a pittance at $52!err at least it is rather cheap for a good perfume!)...will someone tell me whether i should (or should not)!!!!
• they are creatures from hell...a lot of perfumes are on sale....i saw dkny be delicious midnight perfume (thought i don't actually favour it's smell, it's a perfume...by the title of 'perfume' itself gives it an indesribable allure that attracts me like a bee to honey!) and some others...i'm salivating...and ah men's perfumes (i have this great need to buy 2 bottles for my brother and father)...
• they are born with 2 horns (not a ram darn it!) aka the devil...a devil's handmaiden aka rini told me that shoes such as witchery's and some other designers shoes are like $60-$90...still expensive that i need to sell one of my kidneys, i know, but considering their designer origins, yeah, those are kinda cheap....

in the end i made this conclusion that smith and caughey's is the very devil and it's natural variations for my purse...

what can i do?

damnable things that can happen to me:

1. i want to go out and celebrate a friend's b-day by going for a nice dinner - thus, do laundry 6 hours before the said dinner but alas, my clothes are not fully dried...normal laundry usually takes around 2 hours to be done but because i go out with friends for a nice coze at a cafe when my clothes are in the dryer (justifying to self that by the time i'm back home all of my clothes will be dried), my clothes are still partially wet (because it just happens)...what's worse is all of my good wearable clothes are the ones in the dryer...the ones left in the wardrobe have their own 'cuts and bruises' as in tears here and there, thus not wearable in public...so...i have to miss that b-day dinner...i can't go there naked, can't i?
   
2. i wake up 4-5 hours before class...it's a lot of time...so i do other things such as organising plans for the day, check my account, clean up my room, do my bed, water my plants, print out study notes and other things unrelated to getting ready for class...i reasoned to myself 'i have a lot of extra time...i should fill it with useful activities...i will start to shower and get ready for class an hour before class'...30 minutes before class, still in the shower, nowhere near half ready to go to class...time to walk to class, around 20 minutes, give or take (should reserve an extra 10 minutes due to the unpredictable auckland weather, thus resulting to 30 minutes journey time)...i keep thinking i can get ready within 30 minutes while in reality i spend around 45 minutes the least to get myself somewhere in the realm of presentablism (or else i will scare old ladies and little children)....result, late to class...

i have done a lot of stupid things in my life...these 2 defy logic...especially number 2 since i've done it over and over again...you should say 'she must have learned from experience right?' but sadly, it's like a broken record playing, i keep doing it over and over again even when my intentions are good...what can all of you learn from these 2 scenarios?yup, i should've do my laundry the day before and i should've get ready 2 hours before class so that i won't be late....

exercise oh exercise

me and exercise don't go well together...the only way to get me to exercise is to get me to think that exercise is fun...don't get me wrong here....a few things related to exercise that are really great fun to me are the kind of exercise that i really enjoy...i can deal with sweat and smell because they are not considered as exercise in my harley dictionary of life....yup yup the main reasons that i can't deal with exercise are the grunting, sweating and smelling...major ewww...those are, ah, anyway i won't go there, too gruesome to explain...


exercises that i do enjoy are cycling (as in on a real bicycle, being mobile and moving in all the fresh air, not the fixed bicycle in the gym...imagine the sweat and bacteria all over the bike....major turn-off!), swimming (it's more like flopping around like a demented whale than swimming but alas, that description is not accepted by any exercise handbook) and taekwondo....the last exercise is indeed a self-defense class and it has thousands of exercises that i hate such as running and doing push-ups...but i don't know why, when it comes to taekwondo, my brain suddenly goes skewed and realign itself to normality and decipher all those 'usually hated' exercises as 'acceptable'...i also love dancing...it's a physical activity, thus it's considered as exercise is it not (please please be true!)???


anyway, can't people create a better way to drag an exercise-hater like me to do that damnable thing called exercise?like hmmm creating a gym just for fat people so that we won't be embarrased by all these buffed and toned females or those males with abs and buns to die for...fat people and the latter, the buff and beautiful, are 2 totally different species....we don't mix well...or i should actually fix my mindset and think of exercise as a great gob of fun and one of the way to live long and healthy...*sigh*...as if that will happen within this 20 years period...

daily planner

i'm being cautious this week....this week being the first week of the new semester and all...okay, it has nothing to do with anything but yeah, i'm trying to get my school legs back (sea leg, school leg, get it?)....anyway, my sleep cycle is still crazy...i fell asleep around 5 pm or 7 pm and wake up at random time like 12.30 am or 3.15 am...at least i don't fell asleep in the middle of class...


a happy news of the day!i bought a new 2009 diary/daily planner!it's a bit too late (as i should've bought it at the start of the year but hell, it's so hard to find one that fits me!) but it's on sale at the UBS...it's basic black and joyce had one too...actually she was the one who told me about it...she's a kindred spirit...she is similar to me (now i've found my own species!!!!yay!!!we aliens stick together for the future of aliens!)...she arrange stuff in colours...she write down things that she is supposed to do in her daily planner and tick them off when they're done (very moi!) and keeps stuff (pack-rat!)...and yes, buying a daily planner constitutes as a major news of the day...accept it and u'll be better off!


it was a bit eerie to actually find someone who's almost obsessive complulsive as u are, but there it is (as joyce stated 'i'm organised, not obsessive compulsive'....rightttt....that's one way to look at it)...anyway, i am proud to announce that i didn't eat dinner yesterday!why is this piece of crap of information matters, u say?well, i have to loose weight to be healthy and pretty and fit a size 8 (a bit unrealistic but let me have my dream here), and yes, one missed dinner wouldn't make me wake up the next morning 20 kg shed off but alas, i felt good...that's the most important point is it not?(actually the real reason i didn't eat dinner was because i was too tired to cook rice!)...

congratulations!

nia married her sweet-heart ray last holiday!and sadly i missed it because of my damnable mobile phone!she told me she tried calling and texting me so many times to tell me...huhuhu...anyway, it's so sweet!i love weddings...i wished i could attend the wedding, but alas, fate intervened...here's my special wish:

to nia and ray,

have a great marriage ahead and may both of you be happy and blessed with an abundance of joy!

p/s: and congratulations to moi for my 100th post!!!!nothing to brag about but hey, this is my time to shine!hahaha...

news of the day!

evie came back from sydney today!yay!hehehe...it means i'll no longer be alone in this cold drafty apartment (it's cold coz i haven't bought a heater yet ^^)...megu (that's meghna) and her twin malu came to stay in her room today too...thus, everyone's home and we're all snug and happy!so that's news...hehehe...ah n the apartment above me is currently having a blast...the sound of their music is preventing me from sleep (that's how loud their music is!)...punk-*ss!!!


anyway, another news i'd like to impart to my dear readers is that i made some awesome korean dishes today!2 of my favourite korean dishes are the soft tofu stew (soondubu jjigae) and potato side dish (gamja jorim)...they tasted great!!!so yummy!!!i've been following maangchi's korean dishes recipes so far and they worked really well...i also baked apple and boysenberry crumble...it was also delish!omg!i forgot!i promised to make pizza for amin and his housemates!thank god i already bought the ingredients today, so yeah, will bring the pizza to him tomorrow ^^


anyway, that's my new's of the day!i want to make her abalone porridge next time (sans the abalone ^^)...

his logic...

today jonathon said something intriguing to me...guys get girls that they don't want in order to get girls who they want...it's a twisted logic...does that make sense, i ask u?yeah, i did said it doesn't make sense to johnny but he insisted this is a tried-and-proven theory...hmmm...err...does that mean that when a guy likes me he actually doesn't like me but acted that way so that he can get a girl he likes?well, to johnny that holds true...me, i reserve my judgement...it's so plain weird to think of relationships that way!


my take of attraction between girls and boys is a little different from his...i believe, most girls have crushes (as do most guys)...but it is usually the guys who work hard to get the girls (unless u are a japanese, as u may know, they do thing a wee bit different from the rest of the world ^^)...if it's a mutual attraction, hey more the power for u!if it's not (one sided, in this case on the guy's side), not to worry!the guy will usually get the girl eventually...all he needs are determination and no-quitter attitude (and strength if the girl is a direct-reject kind of person)...if he hangs on long enough, he will most probably get her...girls are more malleable in that sense than guys...our hearts are easily touch by devotion...


anyhow, he said a lot of things...his observations are funny...hey johnny, we must do this again!this time, with christina, or alex (he's sooooo cute!)...see what christina will think!hahahaha...